it's quite a disgrace

though i convey things of my own, not all people understand it nor try to hear about it. i don't know what is wrong with me, all the test questions in algebra are right but my answers are wrong. that's how it jump started my culture shock to math world.i liked math, I'm really good at it. not when algebra was born. however, there is this perseverance in my heart that really tells me to go for the goal and strive harder, though i have already done the hardest. math was always in front of me, but the time to spend with math was like running away and making it very difficult for me. people encourage other people in order for them to survive, but it seem that i have over estimated everyone around me, i thought they'd help me, but even if they wanted to, they can't, it's my life so it's my problem. Math is something you do with your self alone, it has nothing to do with your classmate's notebook nor your seat mate's test paper, this is where you prepare yourself to go independent. i am very compassionate and obedient enough for my algebra subject, i thought i gave it all, i thought I've been a gimper. i paused for a while and think, "am i doing this because i want to please everyone with my blog and my journal, i haven't even done my homework in i.a. yet." these things where one of the simple thoughts that always pops into my mind. setting aside all those math things and algebra stuff, have you ever asked yourself? are you getting credits of all the things you do for math subject? i know the root of education is bitter but the fruit is sweet, but this doesn't tell us to be tortured and give a heavy vacuum attached to our brain and have it drained after class. i sleep like 4 hours a day but still no points for efforts. i have no complain for my grades i deserve it and know it for sure, but there is no reason for me not to say what i ave in mind since this is a journal by which we tell everything about everything.